A slightly depressing week.

Yesterday I had the good fortune to have the day off. My brother was in town and I had a few friends that were free, so it was shaping up to be an awesome day. Except what usually happens, happened.
I hung out with my friends Zach and he made fun of how annoying I am and how he didn't really want me around. Kidding of course.
I had lunch with my parents and they made jokes about how annoying I am and how they want me to move out. Kidding of course.
Then I hung out with my brother and friends and they made jokes about how annoying and stupid I am and how they didn't really want me around. Kidding of course.

The thing is, this sort of thing doesn't really bother me because everyone kids around and I can take a joke. I'd also like to think I can throw down a good "zinger" now and then. But the thing is if someone were to follow me around to all my different friend groups, my family and my work you would probably see that everyone makes jokes about how annoying I am and that they can barely just tolerate me. And when you put different groups doing the same thing together in one day, a person can begin to feel a little bit annoying and unwanted.

So today is my depressed day. Where all the attributes I fear about my personality (my stories aren't funny they're just weird, I am a grating person, that no one really likes having me around and I just keep showing up so they just keep tolerating me) I just accept as truth. At least for today. Tomorrow I will probably feel a lot better and try to forget about it.

So for today I apologize. And I apologize for all those times where I've said things that make people cringe because I don't know where the "line" is. I really don't want to make people feel uncomfortable, most times I am just trying to say something ridiculous to make people laugh. I am sorry for any other aspects that I try to control but sometimes slip out and make people look at me like I am crazy. I will try to improve!

Tomorrow they're will be no apologies though, because try as I might I have the memory of a goldfish and always forget to not be crazy.